I am sorry I have been distant lately, but I have been keeping a huge secret from you. And it has been very difficult. I have had such a hard time writing posts without telling you.
We are having TWINS!
Yes, you read that right I said we are having twins, two babies. Oh my, I can’t believe I am actually telling all of you. We are going from a family or 4 to 6. WOW! Good thing we leased a minivan. 🙂 That was a huge step in our lives; you can read all about that here.
Okay, let’s start from the beginning. Back in November we decided that we were ready to start trying for baby number 3. I really didn’t think it happened for us that month and I was okay with that, I knew it would happen when the time was right. However, on Friday, December 7th I decided I should take a pregnancy test since I was due any day for my lovely cycle. Since, I knew it was going to be negative I didn’t think it mattered if Steve was home or not. Well, low and behold two lines showed up on the test and I just about fainted. I truly didn’t even know what to think. I laughed, I cried, I simply smiled. Well, then Sophia woke up and started to call for me so I had to wake up and face reality.
Then, I did what any wife would do the third time around, I sent a text message with the picture of the positive test to Steve. 🙂 (Once, we found out it was twins we laughed that this is the way he found out I was pregnant with TWINS.) Of course, Steve called me immediately and we were shocked together. We couldn’t believe we were going to have another baby. We couldn’t believe we were going to be a family of 5.
I gave us the weekend to let the information soak in then I called my OB/GYN on Monday and made an appointment for the following Monday to get blood work and come in for my first prenatal appointment.
Well, the Friday before the appointment I began to get really sick. Yes, I had morning sickness with both girls, but this was different. I was miserable, but I figured every pregnancy is different. :/
At the first appointment everything went as expected. They took my blood work and did a pregnancy test, the doctor saw me, pretty standard, no big deal. Since, I have always had irregular cycles we decided to schedule an ultrasound for that Thursday, so we could figure out a due date. Standard procedure with me. 🙂
Thursday came along and Steve, the girls, and I made our way to the doctor’s office for our ultrasound. Again nothing out of the ordinary.
We go into the ultrasound room and the ultrasound tech tells me she will turn the screen so I can see after she gets her measurements. She begins (Steve can see the screen at this moment) and the ultrasound tech starts moving the ultrasound wand back and forth like she is looking for something. (Steve gets a funny look on his face, later I find out he saw two babies before the tech said anything.) I immediately think there is something wrong.
The ultrasound tech looks up and says there are two babies in there. I say, “You’re joking.” Steve goes on to say, “I don’t think they are allowed to joke about things like that.” I begin to cry for many reasons. I am shocked, I am overwhelmed, I am scared, and of course excited. The excitement grows ten folds in the coming weeks.
Well, of course with news like this the doctor has to be informed. I truly love my doctor, she has been with me through both my pregnancies and deliveries. As soon as she hears the news she comes to talk to us and can immediately tell how overwhelmed I am. I guess I started breaking out in hives. :/ Of course, I feel so bad for even feeling scared and overwhelmed and not thrilled, but it is the truth.
My other fear is how I am going to take care of my two girls I already have. I am just so afraid of being able to split myself in four. I am so worried about not being able to give my girls enough time with me. I don’t want to miss out on anything with any of my children. I love them all so much. I am worried for the coming months during this pregnancy and for the years to come.
God has so much more faith in me as a mom than I ever have or ever will. Everyone I tell, tells me that I am meant to do this and I really hope they are right. I want to be the best mom I can be for my girls and my twins.
This journey that we are just beginning is seriously one of the scariest and most exciting journeys we have ever taken.
Throughout the past few weeks we have learned so much about twin pregnancies; almost too much. I have learned what a high risk it is carrying two babies to full term and I can’t imagine having to put our two babies in the NICU. It is just so scary. I have learned that with twin pregnancies you have to take it easy and really listen to your body. So, I am committed to taking care of myself and these babies the best I can. I am going to have a happy healthy twin pregnancy. I can’t wait to begin this journey with all of you.
*Tomorrow I will update you will a week 12 pregnancy survey. Talk to you then. 🙂
If there are any moms out there with any advice I would love to hear all about it in the comments below.